Like a salmon.

As some of you may know, my political views are quite liberal. I'm pretty leftist.

Here in Utah, it's kind of hard to find someone who shares the same type of views. Most are conservative, very right-winged. In my English Language class the other day, my profressor was talking about something, and he was like "... and I don't want to make it sound like I'm a liberal. Because I am not a liberal...." like being so was a bad thing. I felt my blood pressure rising after he was done talking, but I calmed down.

Anyway, today in church the topic was about families. We (or the teacher and like four other people) were discussing what a family was. One girl was talking about how marriage is ordained of God, how were supposed to get married in order to enter into the Celestial Kingdom (right?), and bascially that a family consists of a man and a woman and their children. I forgot what else she was saying, but I felt myself roll my eyes at her. Of course, my mind starts going off.

Ok, so I don't want it to make it sound I'm anti-my church or anything, because I'm not really. Obviously there's something about my church that makes me keep going every Sunday. But some things... I don't know. What if a child has two moms or two dads (which is not uncommon nowadays) and the child gets told that a real family is with a mom and a dad? That would make that kid feel like crap. So then their two moms or their two dads back at home, providing shelter for them, providing food for them, loving them uncondtionally- isn't a real family? I have a hard time understanding, or believing that it's not a family.

I know that most of you who read my blog go to my church, and I don't mean to offend anyone. I just keep it real though. And if I'm misunderstanding anything, please- clarify what I'm missing. I know there's a lot I don't know about my church, and I'll blame that on myself because I haven't put a lot of effort into learning more.

I've been lucky to have been born into an awesome family, complete with a mother and a father. But it's hard for me to think that a person with two moms or two dads doesn't have a "real," or whatever you want to call it, family.



You see, I'm like a salmon trying to swim upstream. I'm the salmon just trying to get to a good place, to find myself, to be content. But the river pushing against me is like my thoughts, life, my present and my past.

I sometimes feel like I should be ashamed or bad for the way I feel about things because of the way I was brought up. But I think growing up, you start to develop your own ideas and feelings on things, especially with certain issues. And when my true ideas or feelings don't "fit" what I'm "supposed" to feel or think, I'm like dang- am I going to hell?

But really, I have to be true to myself. And as long as I'm a good person doing good things, I think I'll be okay.


Just as an advisory-- don't judge my parents on anything I say or do. My parents did a fine job raising me.